For what is your life?

In January, we painted, did some remodeling and moved. Crazy, busy time in our lives all filled with excitement, worry, and some sadness. Our world as we knew it was changing.

In February, Dakota came into our lives one week and the next Cody left our world. We had an engagement party for Stacey and Rocky where we announced that our world was forever going to be changed with the birth of a baby. One week later, our world was changed again....

I knew something just wasn't quite right. I wasn't sick, tired yes, but not sick. I even told Jason that maybe I needed to take another pregnancy test just to be sure! Sunday morning I started spotting very lightly. Thought that maybe I had just been overdoing it so I laid down. The spotting began getting heavier followed by cramps. Sunday was a hard day for both of us. We have waited for this child for such a long time, and to be loosing this baby was heart breaking.

Monday morning we went to Tucson to see the doctor. As we waited a very long time in the office, it began to wear on me. As teenage girls with their moms, women who looked like they were on the drugs, etc. came in, I wondered why I was the one having a miscarriage. Wasn't I a better candidate to raise a child? But as I sat their I realized how arrogant that was of me to even think that way. Who was I to question what God has planned for our lives? The best thing is is that I don't even have to understand why, but just trust that God loves me.

There is nothing like the loss of a child, whether if they are only 7 weeks, 25 weeks, 3 years, or 40 years old.

James 4:14
whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away.

More changes......

More changes are coming our way....we are adding to our little family! Yea! Cody and Milo are going to have a new sister!! Her name is Dakota, she is 4 year old lab and we will be getting her this weekend. My soon-to-be brother-in-law, Rocky, hooked us up with dog. I'll keep you posted if he got to us or not! Just kidding, since they are not married yet he is still trying to earn those brownie points!

By the picture I would say that she is good with kids. Do you see that smile, or is just me? Have a great weekend, and go AZ Cardinals! Who says that God doesn't work miracles!

Changes

Wow! It's been a month since I have blogged!! So for all my faithful readers (haha) I have been in the process of moving. Big changes are in store for Jason and I, and we have moved 30 miles south to Elfrida. Jason's granddad sold the farm and we have moved to my parents' farm to help my dad out. Please remember us in your prayers as this is a HUGE change for us!

We have been in our new house for 1 week now. On the second night, I had this incredible urge that I just wanted to go home. Things are better now that we have settled in a little more, but it's weird to be back in the house that I grew up in. But I feel that we are where God wants us to be at the moment, and we are stepping out in faith.

And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is and the He is a Rewarder of those who seek Him. Hebrews 11:6

Merry Christmas!!

I find myself not sleeping very well lately due to the unsettled feeling that surrounds my thoughts. This year has presented many new (and old) challenges and struggles, and next year proves to be more of the same. Sometimes I wish that there was a clear answer from God. Things are changing in our little farming world, and Jason and I have been praying that we make the right move. But it seems that the harder we try, the more opportunities that present themselves the harder and more confusing everything becomes.

So Jason and I have found a verse that I would like to share.

"Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!"
Psalm 27:14

To wait on the Lord is to demonstrate confident expectation. The Hebrew word for wait may also be translated hope. To hope in God is to wait for His timing and His action!

Don't you just love that?! So I wish you a very Merry CHRISTmas, and that whatever situation you find yourself in this Christmas I hope that you too will find yourself waiting on the Lord.

Christian Bigotry?

A letter to the editor was written to our little newspaper about Christian bigotry in the Bible Belt States. This man claims to be a "minister", yet he condemns Christians for not voting for a black who stands against Christians. I am a white voter who did not vote for Barack Hussein Obama because he is pro-choice, I am pro-life, he is for gay marriages, I am for marriages between one man and one woman, and he is against our Second Amendment rights, and I carry a gun! So does that make me a bigot? NO! It makes me a Chrisitian who stood up and voted for a person who would do the best job of protecting what I believe in. It would not matter if that person was white, black, green, purple, or yellow, if they had strong Chrisitian values and stood by them then they would have my vote.

He also wrote how sad it was for the black people in those states whose vote didn't count. Well, I'm sorry but if they got out and voted then their vote counted! And even though the man that I voted for did not win, and still feel that my vote counted. What's sad is the fact that people call white people bigots or racist for not voting for a liberal black man.

He just had to say something negative about President Bush as well, and that if he was running again with only a 28% approval rating that the people in the Bible Belt would have voted for him. Well, sir, I would have voted for President Bush!! How rare these days to find a man who will stand up for what he believes even when it is not popular.

I'm leaving on a jet plane.....tomorrow

This country girl is going to the city!! Tomorrow my mom and I fly out of Tucson heading to Washington D.C., and we are so excited!! But I can't lie and say that I'm not a little bit nervous about the metro. You see I've got this thing with my personal space, and I'm not so great when it gets crowded. Luckily, Nette will be able to coach us through all of that!

This is also the first time for me to leave Jason for such a big trip. I'm not sure how to handle it! I've been cooking all week, and coming up with a list so that he knows what needs to be done. You really don't realize all that you do until you have to leave it to someone else!! But I think that he is going to be OK.

So here's to a very happy weekend, and happy (if that's possible) voting on Tuesday, and I will see you, Nette, tomorrow!!

Trouble In The Wind

She was born on a very cold, very windy Easter Sunday morning. April 16,1995, Trouble In The Wind came into this world and forever changed mine.

We called her Windy and she was quite the little whirlwind. So tiny that she fit neatly under her mama's belly while she nursed.







It was definitely love at first sight, well for me anyway....I'm not sure about Stacey.








Every young girl needs a passion in her life. Mine had always been horses, and Windy came along right before I entered high school. Just good timing or God's hand at work? I would say God's hand at work!!





We entered her into halter classes, dragging her along with us to all the shows.












This was her first blue ribbon. I believe that she is just a yearling in this picture.




















I was showing her in all the classes when she turned 2 years old. She was my baby, my project. I started her, I trained her, and she rewarded me greatly! Together we worked so hard and in the end it paid off.













She was my best friend and I relied on her through my high school years. I am so glad that I had some of my senior pictures taken with her!














Many people do not know that we were on the cover of Brio, a Christian girls magazine. (Please, don't hold the horse "whisperer" title against me! I was not so thrilled when they put that on the cover. Besides, there were many times when I was horse "yeller"!) This was definitely another God thing.














I believe that this was after one of our stressful photo shoots for that magazine. She is drugged here (she got over stressed), but I just love her crossed legs. She stood like that for quite some time!







Arizona State Fair! As a 2 year old we placed 2nd in our Western Pleasure class, but for some reason I don't have those pictures. Here we placed 6th in showmanship, which was one of the toughest classes.





















Lots and lots of waiting in between classes. I miss those days.











This is Windy and Teaspoon, her first and only baby.

It's hard to know when to make that call to end the life of a pet, and it's something that I wish we never had to do. But Windy was suffering from bad hips and she was declining quickly. She came into this world on April 16, 1995, and she left this world on October 9, 2008.

Thank you to my two mama's for coming over to cry with me. Thank you, Jason, for taking care of everything because I could not. Thank you, Father, for the opportunity to own such a remarkable horse. And thank you, Windy, for the time that we spent together, the memories made, the person that I became through you, and for Teaspoon. When you died a piece of me forever died with you. I love you and I miss you.

Goodbye my friend.